After one year living and working again in Innsbruck as a business economist I decided to go on holiday for three weeks to Hawaii (where else J) just to escape the winter and to meet old friends. But eventually this short holiday trip turns out to be a trip that changes my whole life.
My first thought at the airport in Honolulu was, that the whole last year I didn`t realise how much I missed the Aloha spirit.
I lied to myself always saying „I am happy to be in Innsbruck again“, „I like what I am doing at home“. And also if I say it every day, it won`t become true, because my heart feels differently. „It is like you paint over a wet moldy wall with color“ (Robert Betz). And this is exactly how I felt last year. For sure I enjoy my life, I am healthy, I have very good friends to have fun with and great parents, I have a good job, I have enough to eat and enough money to buy nice things. So everyone will ask me and I actually ask myself, why are you not really happy? It seems like whenever I am travelling and somewhere else (not just in Hawaii, also in Paris, in Italy, ….) I am a happy person and in Austria I am a normal person. Here I don`t have the sparkle in the eyes as I have in Hawaii or in Paris or …… So what is it, that makes me feel different?
It can`t be Austria or Innsbruck, because it is nice to live here. Is it just because I am on holiday and life is easy? For sure it is not hard work to ride my lovely beachcruiser J,
play beachvolleyball till sunset,
go snorkeling,
go out with friends drinking good wine, ….. and for sure when you are happy you meet other happy people, you meet nice men. By the way, that`s really funny, because always when I leave home it usually just takes me two days to become acquainted with an interesting charming man and at home I didn`t even meet one the whole last year (Editor´s note: So true!!!). It`s not, that there aren`t any, I just don`t see them at home. So I realized during this trip, it is not about the people or men, it is more about me, who I am, how I behave differently when I am not at home.
All those personal findings raised one question. What do I want in life and what makes me happy? It was the first time I thought about this not including a man. All the time when I was in a relaionship – like the last time in Hawaii, when I tried so hard to find a job there, so that we could stay together – I focused so much on the relationship that I completely forgot about myself. So now that I start concentrating on me I see all those different opportunities that life brings. There is just one question left: „Do I want to change my life now and try do do something day after day that makes me happy?“
I answered the question with „YES“ and from that moment on everything went by itself. Whatever I did, to whom I ever spoke to, it always ended with a new opportunity what I could do in life. For example I just went to a massage school in Honolulu to get a nice Lomilomi massage to do something good for me, and at the end I enrolled at the Hawaiian massage academy to learn Lomilomi, Hawaiian hot stone massage, etc. And why? Because I was always interested in it, I get a new education, I have the chance to stay in Hawaii again for a while, …. and why not? J Then I spoke to friends and immediately I had an apartment to stay in.
It all ended up with a plan for a whole year of new studies in the health and wellness field, moving to Hawaii for some time and then moving to Vienna. I am passionate about this education and I would love to do that work day after day. Three weeks of holiday and a clear „YES“ from myself opened new doors for me to do my own thing.
So sometimes – to calm down for a short time to think about your past, present and future, listening to your heart, a clear „YES“ and for sure also a bit courage and luck, can change your whole life.
„Life moves pretty fast. If you don’t stop and look around once in a while, you could miss it.“
Ferris Bueller
